In a talk given by Pres. Thomas S. Monson he said- "Our house is to be a house of order. “To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven,” advised Ecclesiastes, the Preacher. 14 Such is true in our lives. Let us provide time for family, time for work, time for study, time for service, time for recreation, time for self—but above all, time for Christ."
All these things I need to organize better in my life. Family, work, study, service, recreation and self. I wonder how I will ever be able to manage all these details and sleep. The key I believe is Christ. If we center our thoughts on Christ and take time to learn from him everything else will fall into place. I am still feeling pretty down. I still wish that I felt better about myself, about my accomplishments and about every little detail in my life. I continue to get up every single day and TRY my best but most of the time I end up annoyed at the kids and irritated about something else. Why do I do this? Why can't I just be a better person? I make these big lofty goals and never ever reach them. I think I am missing a huge step in this. I think the reason I have always failed at my goals is because I have missed one huge step.......... that step is to take time for Christ. After all he is the reason I CAN have goals and better myself. He is the reason for it all.
The reason for this blog is to better myself. I was all hyped up to do something and make myself a better person and I fail once again. I lack the motivation to do it. I lack the will to try these things for longer then a day. I feel I need to cut out the world after 8 at night. Let the kids snuggle in bed with me for a half hour reading stories, read my scriptures, journal, blog and catch up on myself. I feel like I am always running 100 miles an hour all day every day. I have stretched myself thin with work, responsibilities and family time. Looking over all I have to accomplish it is time to cut some of it out. Time to manage my life a little better and really accomplish what I set out to do with this blog in the first place.
First step, center all things in Christ and everything will fall into place from there. For once I will just do the best I can and not stress about every single detail that usually drives me crazy. Time to be a better me! The best ME I can be.
i love this post amanda. you amaze me. you really are such an incredible mother, wife, daughter, and sister. i don't know how you do it. i am sure you don't feel that you have it all together, but i think you are doing a pretty damn good job. i look up to you so much. i too feel that i am missing this step in my life and i have decided that i am going to work on this one with ya :) every week i am trying to add something minor into my life. this week i promised i would floss every night and read my scriptures for at least 10 minutes. it's only been 2 days. but i just think that these little goals become the best ones. you should give yourself more credit... you do sooo much for your little family. so much. i know these past couple years have been rough.. but if it weren't for you? you guys would not be where you are now. you held your family together. you have such an important role in that home. i am so proud of you and love you so much. i hope i can be just like you someday. i learn something new from you everyday. i hope you never forget how much i love you. you are one of my best friends. never forget that i am here for you. and not just because i married into your family :) i have a feeling we would have been great friends somehow regardless of that... i really do.
ReplyDeletethis post makes me want to do this too! I feel like i've been good about focusing on Christ, but I feel like that's only on Sundays... which is not nearly enough. I want in on this too! You are an amazing mother. I don't know how you do it, but I am so blessed to have you as an example. I can only hope that I am half the mother to my kids some day as you are to yours! I love you! I am so glad I get to have you as my sister. Have a good day today!
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