I give up! I am tired of working SO hard to get nothing in return. How hard can one person work before it pays off? I feel like I am running in circles. I put a smile on my face, I go to work, I do my business stuff online but then why do we struggle so much? I pray, I pay tithing, I go to church, I try to be a good wife and a mother and still I feel there is no progress. My mom always tells me that I just can't give up but what other option do I have? Every month we get farther and farther behind with things. Bills, callings, appointments etc. I just need a break in the clouds that have been hanging over and raining on us for SO long. When is it my turn to not stress day in and day out how I am going to pay for something? When is it my turn to just enjoy life?
There I have complained. Time to put that happy face on again and pretend like life is just nothing short of AMAZING!
i am sorry amanda :( i hope you know that i love you so much though. i am so glad we are not only family, but great friends. you are amazing. such a great mother, wife, daughter, sister, and friend. probably the hardest worker that i know. i promise you that it will all pay off someday. you have taught me so much by your example. and you are always so willing to help us out when we need it. i believe in karma and i know this will all be worth it. but also? sometimes you just need to vent and get it all out there. i hope you know that i am always here for you. day or night. girls night soon eh? love you!!
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