sometimes I just need to learn to keep my mouth shut. Today is not one of those days. Did I hurt feelings for saying something??............. probably
Do I feel bad for sticking up for my kids?........... not in a million years!
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Saturday, February 4, 2012
5 things that make me happy
1. I love reading other people's blog posts. Call it weird, whatever but I like to know what is going on in their life.... Creepy? Maybe...
I may or may not be laughing so hard I am crying over a recent post my sister in law wrote about their dog walker. Pretty sure I have been laughing for 10 minutes about this. Hilarious!
2. Cute sparkly silver BOBS, that is right BOBS...... Shoe Carnival was doing buy one get one half off so I got a pair from the little girls section and got Addison a matching pink pair. She has been wearing them for 2 hours now and she won't take them off. I tried, she cried.
3. A husband that is willing to go with me to Victoria Secret so I can find a new bra. He is the only male in the place and trying not to look like a creeper played his phone while I tried bras on. He let me use our tax return money to get a few. I love him. Needed them so bad! Even ran into an old neighbor..... right as the lady was telling me that I was $1 away from getting a free lacey thong.... pretty sure he was bright red at that point.
4. Chips and Salsa from Chilis. Enough said.
5. Taking Kaden to get his hair cut at Craig Cuts and having him jump out of the chair with a big smile on his face saying "look mom! I am a cool dude!". Yep, he is a cool dude. Addison touched his hair and messed it up a bit, the kid broke out in tears for 5 minutes. Yep, cool dude.
I may or may not be laughing so hard I am crying over a recent post my sister in law wrote about their dog walker. Pretty sure I have been laughing for 10 minutes about this. Hilarious!
2. Cute sparkly silver BOBS, that is right BOBS...... Shoe Carnival was doing buy one get one half off so I got a pair from the little girls section and got Addison a matching pink pair. She has been wearing them for 2 hours now and she won't take them off. I tried, she cried.
3. A husband that is willing to go with me to Victoria Secret so I can find a new bra. He is the only male in the place and trying not to look like a creeper played his phone while I tried bras on. He let me use our tax return money to get a few. I love him. Needed them so bad! Even ran into an old neighbor..... right as the lady was telling me that I was $1 away from getting a free lacey thong.... pretty sure he was bright red at that point.
4. Chips and Salsa from Chilis. Enough said.
5. Taking Kaden to get his hair cut at Craig Cuts and having him jump out of the chair with a big smile on his face saying "look mom! I am a cool dude!". Yep, he is a cool dude. Addison touched his hair and messed it up a bit, the kid broke out in tears for 5 minutes. Yep, cool dude.
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
the beat goes on
I think I am trapped in the constant beat of life. Same thing every day, same news every day, nothing really positive. How many jobs can you interview with before SOMEONE says "yes"!?! Jason has probably applied for 20 jobs this past week, had one interview that promised him a call back and STILL nothing..... One job told us they are not hiring until March, one never called back, one is a maybe but would move us to New York. Really are we at that point in our life where moving out of state is our only option to survive? I just am heart broken for Jason. He works his butt off, doesn't ever get paid on time and tries so hard to find a new job only to be let down over and over. He is grumpy, down, and just not himself. I know what he is thinking... he feels like he has failed. I feel like he hasn't. I am just really ready for some things to start going our way. I feel like it has been a constant battle since he lost his job with Houghton about 3 years ago. He went without a job for a year and a half, finally found a job and now they don't even pay us on time. Still waiting for our check from Friday and no news as to when it will arrive. We hear the same thing every day "it will be here tomorrow for sure" well tomorrow is here, it isn't here so stop saying FOR SURE!
The bishopric is coming over tonight for a "get to know you" and I am going to right up front with them and say we need help finding a job for Jason. Is that wrong of me??? Then we are headed to get our temple recommends signed by the stake president. I hope that maybe we can get to the temple this weekend. We need some direction bad. We need some help..... There I said it! I need help, I am not going to be too prideful to say it any more. I need help, my family needs help. Praying for the strength to continue putting a smile on my face for my husband. I need a trip to the temple if nothing more then to feel something good and positive for a little bit. blah, such a downer but that is just how I feel and I know it never changes. I am always worried about this exact same thing :(
The bishopric is coming over tonight for a "get to know you" and I am going to right up front with them and say we need help finding a job for Jason. Is that wrong of me??? Then we are headed to get our temple recommends signed by the stake president. I hope that maybe we can get to the temple this weekend. We need some direction bad. We need some help..... There I said it! I need help, I am not going to be too prideful to say it any more. I need help, my family needs help. Praying for the strength to continue putting a smile on my face for my husband. I need a trip to the temple if nothing more then to feel something good and positive for a little bit. blah, such a downer but that is just how I feel and I know it never changes. I am always worried about this exact same thing :(
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Feeling overwhelmed
Lately I have been feeling overwhelmed. Most of those that know me, know that I get this way often. It is a little different this time. It is not because I am busy with my business, or the kids..... I am feeling this huge pressure to better our situation and find a place to move with in 8 months. I look at our finances and don't know how we will be able to accomplish so much so quickly. I panic because I don't feel like I am selling enough, doing enough with the kids, doing enough to be a great wife and mother. It is amazing if I can go the entire time at church with out tears flowing.
From Presiden Dieter F. Uchtdorf's talk "Forget Me Not"=
Sisters, wherever you are, whatever your circumstances may be, you are not forgotten. No matter how dark your days may seem, no matter how insignificant you may feel, no matter how overshadowed you think you may be, your Heavenly Father has not forgotten you. In fact, He loves you with an infinite love.
Just think of it: You are known and remembered by the most majestic, powerful, and glorious Being in the universe! You are loved by the King of infinite space and everlasting time!
He who created and knows the stars knows you and your name—you are the daughters of His kingdom. The Psalmist wrote:
“When I consider thy heavens, the work of thy fingers, the moon and the stars, which thou hast ordained;
“What is man, that thou art mindful of him? …
“For thou hast made him a little lower than the angels, and hast crowned him with glory and honour.”5
God loves you because you are His child. He loves you even though at times you may feel lonely or make mistakes.
The love of God and the power of the restored gospel are redemptive and saving. If you will only allow His divine love into your life, it can dress any wound, heal any hurt, and soften any sorrow.
We are promised that if we look to the lord that he will help us with our trials. He will hold our hands, walk with us during the dark times. I just know I have to keep trying. Eight months seems like a small amount of time but I have to HOPE and have FAITH that it will be enough. That something amazing is in store for us. This is just a set up for a HUGE positive....... I hope
From Presiden Dieter F. Uchtdorf's talk "Forget Me Not"=
Sisters, wherever you are, whatever your circumstances may be, you are not forgotten. No matter how dark your days may seem, no matter how insignificant you may feel, no matter how overshadowed you think you may be, your Heavenly Father has not forgotten you. In fact, He loves you with an infinite love.
Just think of it: You are known and remembered by the most majestic, powerful, and glorious Being in the universe! You are loved by the King of infinite space and everlasting time!
He who created and knows the stars knows you and your name—you are the daughters of His kingdom. The Psalmist wrote:
“When I consider thy heavens, the work of thy fingers, the moon and the stars, which thou hast ordained;
“What is man, that thou art mindful of him? …
“For thou hast made him a little lower than the angels, and hast crowned him with glory and honour.”5
God loves you because you are His child. He loves you even though at times you may feel lonely or make mistakes.
The love of God and the power of the restored gospel are redemptive and saving. If you will only allow His divine love into your life, it can dress any wound, heal any hurt, and soften any sorrow.
We are promised that if we look to the lord that he will help us with our trials. He will hold our hands, walk with us during the dark times. I just know I have to keep trying. Eight months seems like a small amount of time but I have to HOPE and have FAITH that it will be enough. That something amazing is in store for us. This is just a set up for a HUGE positive....... I hope
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Lesson
Today was a very powerful lesson in relief society. The lesson was titled "love thy neighbor". I found myself trying to keep the tears from flowing the entire lesson. I have been blessed with so much love and kindness shown to me and my family over the past few years. When we lost Matt our entire ward seemed to be behind us. They would come over, call, write, leave food and offer help with kids. It was amazing how flags were put out at our house for a week. The young men and young women had no idea how much that meant to us. More important it meant alot to Jason. He was hurting but I know he felt the love that was all around us just as much as I did.
Another example of kindness, one that I will never forget was when Jason and I left for a trip on another memorial they were doing. My dear friend came over late one night without me knowing, cleaned the house, organized my shop supplies and didn't even tell me. I walked into the house just shocked! I was under so much stress at the time I just could not believe someone would do that for me.
I am on the receiving end of alot of kindness from two very important sisters. They may not be blood but they are my only sisters and wonderful how much they have shown me and taught me over the past couple of years. They NEVER pause to think when i need help, they are always there with a big smile. Drinks, talks, encouragement and much more. The kindness and love shown from them is somethng I will never be able to repay and will spend my life trying.
Another example would be my parents. When Jason and I felt like we were at a dead end they kindly told us it was time to move in with them and have helped us get on our feet again. The support and unconditional love they have shown is more then I can express. They didn't have to let our little family of five take over their home, they easily could have just let us learn a hard lesson but didn't.
All these and more came to mind as I was listening to the lesson. So very thankful for all those wonderful people in my life. I am really blessed and will continue to try and recognize the positive things in my life instead of all the doom and gloom.
President Monson said in an article that came on in the Ensign that the biggest part of living a full and happy life is your attitude. I want to change mine..... I will work on it!
Another example of kindness, one that I will never forget was when Jason and I left for a trip on another memorial they were doing. My dear friend came over late one night without me knowing, cleaned the house, organized my shop supplies and didn't even tell me. I walked into the house just shocked! I was under so much stress at the time I just could not believe someone would do that for me.
I am on the receiving end of alot of kindness from two very important sisters. They may not be blood but they are my only sisters and wonderful how much they have shown me and taught me over the past couple of years. They NEVER pause to think when i need help, they are always there with a big smile. Drinks, talks, encouragement and much more. The kindness and love shown from them is somethng I will never be able to repay and will spend my life trying.
Another example would be my parents. When Jason and I felt like we were at a dead end they kindly told us it was time to move in with them and have helped us get on our feet again. The support and unconditional love they have shown is more then I can express. They didn't have to let our little family of five take over their home, they easily could have just let us learn a hard lesson but didn't.
All these and more came to mind as I was listening to the lesson. So very thankful for all those wonderful people in my life. I am really blessed and will continue to try and recognize the positive things in my life instead of all the doom and gloom.
President Monson said in an article that came on in the Ensign that the biggest part of living a full and happy life is your attitude. I want to change mine..... I will work on it!
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Fun
Getting out with some of my favorite people yesterday was exactly what I needed. Kids are back to school today and I am so ready to get back on a schedule. I don't hear any fighting or crying right now...... all is good in the world right now, this very moment.
Monday, January 2, 2012
Cleansing
Purity is natural. We come into this world with all the right instincts. We are innocent and therefor perceive things as they should be, rather then how they are. Our conscience is clear, our hands are clean, and the world at large is truly beautiful. It is at this time we feel most blessed. To begin feeling young again, we must begin with the most basic step of all; the daily ritual of cleansing.
This is on the bottle of my face wash. I have read the quote every day for years but never had it make more sense then it did today. It is EXACTLY what I am trying to do. Cleansing my life of the negative so I can once again see the world as beautiful.
So the journey truly begins..
This is on the bottle of my face wash. I have read the quote every day for years but never had it make more sense then it did today. It is EXACTLY what I am trying to do. Cleansing my life of the negative so I can once again see the world as beautiful.
So the journey truly begins..
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