I think I am trapped in the constant beat of life. Same thing every day, same news every day, nothing really positive. How many jobs can you interview with before SOMEONE says "yes"!?! Jason has probably applied for 20 jobs this past week, had one interview that promised him a call back and STILL nothing..... One job told us they are not hiring until March, one never called back, one is a maybe but would move us to New York. Really are we at that point in our life where moving out of state is our only option to survive? I just am heart broken for Jason. He works his butt off, doesn't ever get paid on time and tries so hard to find a new job only to be let down over and over. He is grumpy, down, and just not himself. I know what he is thinking... he feels like he has failed. I feel like he hasn't. I am just really ready for some things to start going our way. I feel like it has been a constant battle since he lost his job with Houghton about 3 years ago. He went without a job for a year and a half, finally found a job and now they don't even pay us on time. Still waiting for our check from Friday and no news as to when it will arrive. We hear the same thing every day "it will be here tomorrow for sure" well tomorrow is here, it isn't here so stop saying FOR SURE!
The bishopric is coming over tonight for a "get to know you" and I am going to right up front with them and say we need help finding a job for Jason. Is that wrong of me??? Then we are headed to get our temple recommends signed by the stake president. I hope that maybe we can get to the temple this weekend. We need some direction bad. We need some help..... There I said it! I need help, I am not going to be too prideful to say it any more. I need help, my family needs help. Praying for the strength to continue putting a smile on my face for my husband. I need a trip to the temple if nothing more then to feel something good and positive for a little bit. blah, such a downer but that is just how I feel and I know it never changes. I am always worried about this exact same thing :(
i hear ya amanda. i feel a little bit in this same boat. well maybe not the same boat but some of the same feelings. feeling stuck for sure. i am sorry you that you are feeling down amanda :( it breaks my heart to see you guys struggling. you both work so hard, and we all know it. you guys are due for a break. that is for sure. anyone would be lucky to have jason as an employee. if there is anything i have learned these past few months is that things never seem to happen when you want them to. but when they do finally happen, i suppose and hope it will make all make sense. i've been praying hard for everyone in our family. i hope good things are in everyone's future. love you. let me know if i can do anything for ya.
ReplyDeletejason is amazing and he has proven that time and time again. he is going to find a great job soon, and everything will turn around! the Lord works in mysterious ways! i am impressed that your first thought has been to talk with the bishopric - they are an amazing help with employment, and going to the temple for some direction? i am embarrassed that that isn't always on my mind when i struggle. i think it's exactly what you guys need. you are doing exactly what you need to be doing. i heard this quote once that said something along the lines of "the Lord doesn't always answer your prayers right away, but he is always on time." it's so true! we are not doing things on our own time. we are on the Lord's time, and he's doing things this way for a very specific reason. You will be so much stronger because of this! love you guys SO much. grateful for your family every single day.
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