please don't read this and think I am just complaining because I am very very blessed in my life but I have to get a few things down before I spend 2 days crying it out...
I am sitting here, looking out the window while looking at rentals online. My heart hurts..... 2010/2011 has been a really really hard year and a half. Down to the hardest thing I have had to do and that is move in with family. I am so grateful we have the chance to start over and oh how thankful I am to a mother and father who took us in without a second thought. I am just aching for my own............ my own life back. I have no motivation any more. I am not motivated to clean, to cook, to do anything! I look at rentals just about every single day, dreaming about having my life back. I really thought that by the time I was 30 that I would have my life together. I would own a home, be financially secure, and basically all together. Usually I have a schedule and get things done but I really struggle with that lately.
I read a talk by Elder Holland today and part of it goes-
“Don’t give up, boy. Don’t you quit. You keep walking. You keep trying. There is help and happiness ahead—a lot of it—30 years of it now, and still counting. You keep your chin up. It will be all right in the end. Trust God and believe in good things to come.”
So I will end with that "Trust God and believe in good things to come."
